Friday, November 11, 2011

The Trouble in Paradise....

17th Sept : Operations Research
18th Sept : Electronic Commerce
19th Sept : Enterprise Resource and Planning
20th Sept : Mass Communication.
21st Sept : Client Server Technology
22nd Sept : Management Information Systems
24th Sept : Neural Networks
25th Sept : Multimedia

I looked at the time table that had made way to my classmate's mobile phone - obviously missing my gaze - for the fifth time now. I read out the itinerary silently... Subjects that I could bear, those I would mess up and those I'd do "just OK". Which meant that I was going to be a five point something again... The figure that messed up my life last year after the results were announced; something I'd rather forget, when after being battered by Mom's nagging I lost almost all the confidence I had (which among other things, meant I couldn't share secrets with Mom - yes, take it all lightly, this could be worse, right?). Having a debate (which is usually heated - this was a usual debate, by the way) Mom finally said what she should have, long ago. "I don't care what grades you get..." and then "If you don't get you desired score, don't come back crying because you lost many opportunities by your five point something attitude." Of course the only politically correct answer was "I won't." Guess that ended it for then, while I heaved a sigh of relief...

One glance at my First Term exam time table (combined with the partial recall of the term's attendance) told me that 'Neural Networks' would be the most troublesome part of this appalling exam regime. Neural Networks (shortened to NN by our folks) is a subject that has its roots in mathematical models and talks about how the brain (or the neuron(s) - a tiny unit of out brain, more specifically) processes the information it gets as an input, and how to inject the same intelligence into the computers - or artificial neurons. But it is not the mathematical models that trouble me, what troubles me the number of lectures I missed due to oversleeping...

Ah! How how great it feels after fighting with my mother and to know that she doesn't care for the marks!! I can forgo this subject, of course not without foreboding... But then is study the only thing in my life? Will it be too bad if I, for once do not delve into the intricacies of The Brain (not the mind) and try concentrating on what I want? Like PHP?

But for now, I have to concentrate capturing my notes, strewn afar in discrete patches - inside one exclusive notebook for each subject... A Herculean task, which has to be done anyway. And what is life anyway? Without friends at the college, with enemies among the staff et al.... Though I make my life very secluded from the general fun everyone has, I guess I'm doing the right thing for now. Not that I'm being antisocial... I will help anyone who'd want it from me.. but some thing are my own to have.. Not the least of which is my own life. And though I help many, that does not mean they are obliged to be close to me and share their life with me, which applies to me too...

And your life has to be shared only among worthy friends and probably your better half :)

Exams are close, and my Internet hours are dwindling... that should be clear by the fact that I have come to the University's broadband cafe, instead of having Internet at home.. I shall not be here for a while, so this post should fill up the lengthening gap.. See you later!

Fare Well..!!

7 comments:

Void said...

You should write faster... great one. keep blogging... cheerioz!!

zahid said...

Hmm......

Neural networks and client servers must be pretty much an alien to a mechanical engineer, which i am...,
but yep, the blog was real fun....,

And please dont sigh for being a five point someone....not that i am going to give you examples of five pointers who made it big in their lives but bcoz i believe the 5 point and the 9 point someones are the only two species of students who are really happy...

Needless to say why the 9 pointers are happy...., 5 pointers have solace in teh fact that atleast they are happy with what they are doing with their life, its visible to them....

The worst life is that of 7,8 pointers who are on the razors blade...they dont know where they are heading, they feel that they are neither enjoying nor a serious contender of success...

And whatz PHP???....I am a bit poor at abbreviations and short forms....

And finally All the best for your examination and return to the bloggin ways and PHPism fast!!!

Patchez said...

@Zahid
ohh... PHP?? thats hypertext preprocessor... do not worry abt that! its juz anotha programming language for u.. that allows u to create web pages... and thanks for calling it PHPism... PHP aficionados will loVe it :)

thanks once again!

@void

i will... ciao :)

Anonymous said...

hehehe!!
bet you didnt realise i subscribe to this.. :)
but i do and as i read every new post my respect and admiration for you finds new meaning and adds inspiration to my own dreary life.
Keep it up patchy, and when those moments that get you down come around again, smile at them. There is nothing more disarming than a smile. I'm sure you dont need me to tell you that.

Patchez said...

Thank you Mr. "Anonymous".. though I know more abt u than just your name! Ur comment is.. well, encouraging to say the least. See you!

jayant said...

"interesting post".this ws my first impression as read thru ur time table and i'm quite happy that the rest of the post added to that feeling.
well, i hope u fared well enough and being a 7 point something in manipal(which is equivalent to being a six pntr in any college of north india)i cant explain how much i identified with ur post!
would love to know more about you,patchy(i pray its nt ur real name as its too awkward for one).
n yes,thanks a lot for takin d eternal pain of readin thru my blog and commenting..
hope to see read more 4m u!!!

Patchez said...

@Jayant

Well thanks @first impression :)

i will get in touch wid u!! :)